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I met Hunter on the 4th of July 2021. At first I didn’t want to date him because he seemed full of
himself and immature but he had instantly taken a liking to me and a couple weeks later we started
going on dates and hanging out every day. I still thought he was immature and full of himself but he
was also really charming and sweet and I wanted to give him a chance. Towards the end of
September, early October we became official. After some time I told him things I had never told
anyone, including about a boy who I had not been in a relationship with but that had forced himself
on me (just making out nothing illegal) even though I had told him multiple times no. I had told
Hunter that that had been scary for me because although nothing horrible had happened, I had been
overpowered and in the moment the thought of what could happen scared me. He had been sweet
and kissed me on the cheek and told me I would be safe with him. The relationship was fine for a
while, I noticed small things like he didn’t like it when I came up with plans and everything revolved
around his schedule. He would also talk about how crazy his exes were and would talk poorly about
his friends. Other than that he showed me cool places and talked to me all day every day. He would
tell me I was wifey material and nice things like that. He told me that his reputation was important to
him and that that’s why he wanted to date good girls, because “who you date reflects on who you
are”. He told me he liked that I was innocent and how most of his sex jokes went over my head
because at that time I really didn’t know much about that topic. He started getting distant in the end
of November. We broke up for a week towards the end of December because he felt overwhelmed
with family and wasn’t ready for marriage and said he needed to get counseling and work on himself
before dating me but that he still wanted to be best friends. I went to tell him one day we couldn’t be
friends because if we were I would still have feelings for him, but I went out of that conversation
being his best friend still. Then a week later we drove out to Indian Springs to talk and look at the
view. I had been worried about him because he had seemed really sad every time I saw him. On the
way there he had been literally crying (sobbing) about his ex Ava and also how he felt bad for
treating me too. When we got there he brought up how hard the break up had been for him and how
sad it was. He put his arm around me and we ended up cuddling. He told me he had missed this and
that he wanted it but commitment scared him. I asked him if he wanted to be exclusive again but not
call it boyfriend girlfriend (but be boyfriend girlfriend) until he was ready and he said yes. Then we
made out and he put his hand down my pants and tried to finger me. I knew that he had had sex
before but we had had several conversations about how he doesn’t do that anymore and was trying to
repent and I had told him I was waiting for marriage and had never done anything past making out
before and didn’t have a desire to. When he did that it made me uncomfortable so I told him to stop
and he did but then moments later he pulled my pants down a bit and started kissing me down there.
I didn’t say anything that time, I was confused because I was happy to be back with him but also
didn’t like what was happening.
Throughout the relationship Hunter had talked about how crazy his exes were, talked about how
stupid his friends were, had gotten his “friend” Tristan in trouble at work, had made comments about
how he always gets what he wants and that he was learning from his uncle how to get the things he
wanted from people in work settings. He would say things that hurt my feelings and then when I
asked him not to he would say he’d stop but then continue. I noticed that when I tried to
communicate he would start doing the very things I had told him bother me and when I’d bring it up
to him he would either deny everything or tell me it was my fault. He had stood me up on dates or
flaked and when I told him it hurt my feelings he said that I was just lucky he didn’t do it more often
because he had lots of options. But then after he was mean he would go right back to being a nice guy
and act like nothing happened. At one point in March he yelled at me that he didn’t want me to tell
him when he hurt my feelings anymore. He said I would just have to live with it. Talking about
feelings wasn’t allowed. He had made it clear through most of the relationship that talking about
anything that wasn’t shallow except when he brought up things was not okay. He had told me he
needed help finding a therapist because he knew he hurt people and had problems. So I got him a list
and then when I asked if he called (a month later) them yet, he told me he was tired of me thinking I
knew what was best for him and that he didn’t need therapy, he was fine and too busy anyways.
After the thing happened in March where he yelled at me we broke up and a week later he told me
he wanted me to go to work with him for the whole day so I could see the technician side of things
and to ask Lance for a hat with the EPIX logo on it so that I could go. (He had been acting like the
break up didn’t even happen). So I did but I felt set up afterwards because Lance said that he didn’t
think it was a good idea because Hunter told him the day before that we had never gotten back
together and that he didn’t think it would be a good idea. I was humiliated of course because one:
Hunter knew Lance was going to say no and told me to ask him anyways, basically blindsiding me
and making me feel bad and second: because he was pretending like we had never gotten back
together.
He had also told me several times about how he had dreams about shooting people, mostly in self
defense. I know that they were just dreams but they lived in the back of my mind. As well as there
was a time when I had plucked his eyebrows and he said he didn’t want them done anymore. When I
asked him why he said it was because there was a very real part of him that wanted to cause me
physical pain. When I asked him if he was joking he said no. He had jokingly mentioned wanting to
beat me before as well or wanting to hurt me but there were times he would say it seriously and
wouldn’t laugh. We once went to go shooting and he told me how he loved killing cute things and
looked at me and asked me if I felt safe. It creeped me out. Even if it was a joke but my bodies
reaction and his lack of laughing and serious face told me it wasn’t. Just like one time he was talking
about how naive and childlike I was, that I was basically 13 and I asked him if I was a child then
what was he and he said, “A pedophile.” He would also talk about how he wanted to kill his brother
and was waiting for him to put one toe out of line so he could “beat the shit out of him and kill him”
and call it self-defense. Every time we broke up and I would pull away he would come back 10 times
stronger it seemed, but I just thought it was because he liked me.
Hunter had qualities that made it easy to forget the bad things at times though. He was fun and funny
and could really have you thinking he cared (especially when he wanted something).
After we had broken up in March I was crying (April 4th) in my car so hard my nose had started
bleeding. I put it on my private story with the caption “felt cute might delete later”
He saw that and told me to come over and said I couldn’t cry alone. Initially I said no but gave in and
went over. I cried in his arms for a couple hours and ended up staying the night. It felt so good to be
back in his familiar arms that the next morning I asked if we could be exclusive again and be best
friends and cuddle and hold hands sometimes. He said yes. Later that morning I kissed him and we
started to make out but then out of no where his hands were down my pants and then I was on the
floor and he took my pants completely off and I was so shocked I didn’t know what to do or say. It’s
like I froze. All I could think of was that if I said no he would be angry and potentially try to hurt me
in some way. He had never hit me before but he had held me over the railing at his grandmas house
one time (jokingly but still kind of scary for me- he knew I was afraid of heights) and also had
grabbed my wrist one day when I was getting out of the car because I was still wearing his watch. I
said to let go a few times, that I couldn’t get the watch off unless I had my hand to take it off.
Eventually he did but I had bruises later that day. He would also jump at me to scare me through the
whole relationship. In the back of my mind were all the ways he had talked about always getting
what he wanted, the creepy comments, and how he knew how to hurt me emotionally as well as
socially and potentially physically. I thought about what he had done to anyone who ever upset him
(getting Tristan in trouble, convincing everyone Annabelle and Ashley and all his exes were crazy
etc.) Not to mention he has lots of gun and always has one on him or nearby. So I followed my
instincts and went along with it. We had moved into the bathroom and he had me up on the sink and
that’s when he took his clothes off. At this point I was losing my mind with fear. I had never seen a
male part before except for one that was on my friends phone a year before that and that alone had
confirmed I never wanted to see another one again let alone in real life. I kept my eyes up to not look
at it. At one point he told me he could tell I had never seen one before and that I was supposed to
look at it. I glanced down at it to appease him and started talking and saying anything because I was
nervous. We stared kissing again and then he told me he wanted me to touch it. I told him I literally
could not touch it. He told me it was okay, that I could and that with time it would get easier, and I
would get better at it. I told him a few more times I couldn’t, and he said, “Here just put your fingers
around it so you can know how big it is” and it took me a while but eventually I did. He rubbed his
thing on me a lot too and then did what he told me was called “the big C word.” He “came” on me,
idk if that is the correct spelling sorry. That was disgusting and I said ew. (He had taught me basically
all I know about sex and knew those things and saying words like that made me uncomfortable).
When we were finally done he told me I couldn’t tell anyone. He said that Tayler would be very mad
at me and for him for corrupting me and that I could under no circumstances tell Matthew.
Throughout the rest of the two months he would remind me when caught in a lie, deny deny deny,
and constantly checked with me to make sure I wasn’t telling people. In the weeks to follow he
would cut me off with one look. I remember one time at Hunter’s studio Spencer jokingly asking me
how big Hunter’s private part was. Spencer was playing Minecraft and couldn’t see Hunter from
where he was but I glanced over and Hunter gave me the most threatening scary look I’d ever seen. It
sent a chill up my spine and I knew if I said one thing wrong there would be problems. That
happened again after Hunter did his taxes and told me I couldn’t tell anyone about the fraud he
committed and right after that his aunt came over and asked what we were up to and he gave me a
similar look. He also made sure that I didn’t tell my dad about the shady business deal that his and his
uncle were doing because if my dad found out they couldn’t get the loan for the house. I felt like an
awful person not telling anyone anything but the fear in my brain kept me from saying too much.
I was seriously scared the whole time. After it happened that first time I went to Matt’s that night
because that is who I usually go to with my problems but I just cried and cried because Hunter had
told me not to tell anyone and I had learned that going against what Hunter said always had bad
consequences for me. I had never kept a secret from Matt or any of my friends before but I felt that I
had to. But at the same time I felt horrible because I didn’t know how to get out of the situation and
had been waiting for marriage and didn’t want this to continue. Matt knew something was very
wrong but I didn’t tell him that night.
When I saw Tayler she knew something was wrong too. I decided if I told her everything was my
fault then maybe she could help me out of it but wouldn’t let Hunter know that I told or give him
any reason to hurt me. I tried explained to her that I didn’t want it to happen but wasn’t able to say
no because I was scared of Hunter but that it was my fault because I was too afraid to say no. I told
her I never wanted to see a male part ever again. She told me to tell Hunter I wanted to stop.
The next time I saw Hunter I had decided I was going to tell him I didn’t want to continue. Before I
could he started talking about sex and made it clear that he was in the mood and that same fear factor
kicked in and I went along with it. It was the same thing that had happened so many times before
when I would go in to tell him something that was bothering me but ended up staying quiet out of
not wanting him to get angry or starting to tell but him making me feel stupid for it. I told him we
could, at that point I was just trying to please him and keep him happy and from not hurting me in
any way.
A couple days later he told me he could tell that penetration scared me and that all of this scared me
(my hands would shake anytime he told me it was time to practice touching his thing.) He could also
probably tell because when my hand didn’t go there he would put it there himself and move it for
me. So when he said that I took the opportunity to confirm that this was true. I told him, “Yes you
are right. Penetration terrifies me and I don’t ever want to do it. I am not okay with it.” I remember
being very clear on that because I had felt relieved to be able to say it.
I felt happy that I had said that and now that he knew that would be at least one thing I wouldn’t
have to worry about happening. But then that night he started physical things and then he started
fingering me. I felt so betrayed. I said, “Stop” and he didn’t stop. I said, “Hunter please stop” and he
didn’t. I said stop one more time and he slowed down and then just kept his finger in there until he
eventually removed it. Plus, not only had this happen but after the first two times he had gotten
really aggressive. He would choke me so hard I couldn’t breath. My neck hurt to the slightest touch
and I could hardly swallow. Speaking hurt. I remember telling Tayler it hurt to talk because he had
choked me so hard. He bit me so hard on the chest and I had teeth marks that lasted nearly two days.
He bit me so hard on the face it bruised. A lot of the time I would have bruises all over my chest. He
would be so hard on me with his hands at one point my entire right boob was brown from the bruise.
I would make little squeals of pain which were always ignored. I showed Tayler and she said he
shouldn’t be so rough with me that it wasn’t normal. She made such a pained face when she saw it.
She told me she knew I bruised easy but that this was way too much. Also sometimes when I would
try to scoot away he would grab my hair and pull it so hard my eyes always stung with tears. I tried
to bring it up to him and we would dismiss it. One time he even said he felt it was too much for me to
handle and I told him it was and that I wanted it more gentle. But this changed nothing. He later told
me he was a sadist and that causing pain turned him on.
Hunter bit me down in that area too and it hurt so so bad. I had bruises all over my legs and that
entire area of my “downstairs” if you will, was bruised and hurt to sit or do anything. One time he
went down on me and I started to scream loudly and he just covered my mouth and kept going, even
when I had tears rolling down my face. I think he may have been biting me down there too or using
teeth or something from what it felt like along with the fingering. I have nothing to compare it to but
I don’t think it's supposed to hurt that bad, and if it does then I am happy to never do that again.
After about 40 minutes of this he looked at me and said, “Oh was that too much?” And I just stared at
him because obviously it was too much. I didn’t even know what to say I just said, “Yeah it was
intense and a lot for me.” And then he didn’t even say anything and just started kissing me again and
moved on from that just to continue to do more sexual things. He also mentioned he never wanted to
risk me getting pregnant and that he wouldn’t go all the way with me but then he would try to push
it in sometimes. The most it ever went in was like an inch or two (I have no idea how to tell) but it
wasn’t all the way because I would try to move away while reminding him of pregnancy and offer to
kiss his male part instead. (Which was not fun but better than potentially being stuck with him for
life due to a child). He would say, “Oh I didn’t even realize it was in” or pretend that wasn’t what he
was doing.
I felt like an object. I felt like no matter what I said I wouldn’t be heard. I felt frustrated because I was
trying to get help but didn’t want him to know I went against what he said and at the same time
didn’t want to get him in trouble. I didn’t realize at the time that it could be considered rape I just
knew it was bad.
A few weeks went by and I was still stuck in the same predicament. I was thankful that his male part
had never gone the full way in to me but I was out of my mind afraid that anything could happen
because when I had said no it meant nothing. I went to my friend Tristan who was smart about
addiction recovery, and I thought that maybe some of his experience could help, not that I was
addicted but that I needed help in breaking the cycle. I told him I was scared, as throughout those
two months and after I had told several people that I was afraid of Hunter, including Tayler, Spencer,
Matt, Tristan, Danny, and Lauren. Even Lance. Tristan tried to help me the best he could but fear
kept winning over within me. Matt eventually flat out asked me what was going on with Hunter and
I and I told him I needed help getting out. Early on my friend Danny had come to me and asked me if
there was something going on that shouldn’t with me and Hunter. He told me he had a weird vibe
from Hunter and had known him growing up but wasn’t close to him. He seemed genuinely worried
about me and so I trusted him and told him as much as I could.
The next day I tried to bring it up to Hunter and he told me he didn’t want to talk about it.
Every time after that first time that he had done things without my consent I just went along with it.
I would make plans in my head like, okay tonight I'll just sit far away and not be flirty or anything
and it would happen. It still happened. I said okay I’ll just hang out in the day and it won’t happen
but it did. When I would say things like I am uncomfortable putting my mouth on your male part he
would just push past all of my objections. Talking to the police was not an option in my mind it never
occurred to me because that would mean Hunter would definitely want to hurt me and I wasn’t in
the right mental space to handle that kind of terror. I didn’t know how to get out of the situation the
right way and sometimes I felt like I would never be able to get away from him and his influence. I
felt trapped and stupid for not being able to get out.
Then he started using “no sex” as a “punishment". If I tried to bring up things he would get mad and
say okay then I don’t want to do things with you anymore. I would be so relieved, but I realized
quickly that it wasn’t true because the next time I’d see him he would be all over me again. He told
me we didn’t have to do things and could still be friends but it was like the attitude of a salesman who
says there is no pressure to buy but then stays there until you buy. And then he would tell me it was
all my fault. That everything that was happening was my fault because I went along with it, because I
“wanted it” so much and because I laughed at his jokes. I tried to explain then again I didn’t want it
but he just continued to say I did. He was losing his patience with me even though I was for the most
part compliant. One night we went to a fire in the canyon with Matt and Spencer. Hunter wanted a
picture of me but I didn’t want one so Spencer and Matt grabbed me and held me until Hunter could
get the photo. Then he said so seriously, “See how easy it would be to rape and kill you.” No one
laughed. After what he said set in Spencer made a nervous laugh and we moved on. But I was
freaking out. I was alone down there with them and guns. Later I talked to Matt about it and he had
agreed and said it was a really messed up thing for him to say. This only added to my terror.
I was at the lowest weight I had ever been before, 110lbs. I was losing hair. I was sad and scared and
felt like my friends must think I was so stupid for not being able to escape.
Tayler was mad at me because I was so sad all the time and she didn’t understand why I hadn’t just
broken up with him forever ago. It wasn’t that simple. I was scared for my life. I had told her and all
the friends on multiple occasions that I was scared of him. But I felt horrible about myself at this
point. I was mad at myself for being weak and not being able to stand up for myself, even though I
had tried everything I could think of including saying no. I decided I needed more help so I found a
therapist and talked to my bishop. When he found out I was going to a therapist he pressured me to
not say anything. He asked if I had told her any of the things we had done and I said, “no” and he said
“good”. I didn’t tell her everything at that time but enough that she helped me make a plan to talk to
my boss that would minimize contact with him. I expressed to Lance that Hunter made me
uncomfortable and he helped me so I didn’t have to go to the meetings anymore and that I didn’t
have to answer Hunter’s phone calls or report to Hunter like Hunter had wanted me to. I had been
constantly worried that Hunter would try to make me lose my job too and so it was a nice to talk to
Lance and be reassured that he wasn’t going to fire me and he thought I was doing a nice job. After
Hunter and I finally ended things he did start complaining to Lance about me, but luckily Lance saw
through that.
I still didn’t want to cause more problems so when I spoke to my Bishop I tried to explain what
happened without going in to specifics. He said it sounded like rape and I told him no (at that point I
still didn’t know it could be called that) I expressed that I was scared of Hunter though and he gave
me a blessing and told me that I was strong enough to get out of this. We devised a plan that I would
make Hunter his favorite food pizza and then politely discontinue the relationship. I would call
Bishop afterword and that if I wasn’t able to go through with it then the next time we would meet up
and he and I would write a text together to end the relationship.
Hunter caught scent though (I think Matt told him) because then he was texting me he didn’t want to
see me anymore. I wanted to tell him how I felt though so he came over and I told him that I had
never wanted to do the things we did. He told me I owed myself an apology. He told, “Great, now I
don’t have to hide the fact I’ve been going out with Micah and I can do things that I know will hurt
you and not have to worry about you finding out anymore.” It stung but I was just happy that I had
made a step in the right direction. I knew he would still be rude and do mean things but at least my
body could have a break.
A few weeks went by and I finally told Matt the part about getting fingered without permission. He
told me many times he wasn’t going to be hanging out with Hunter anymore after he did this so I
thought I could trust him and he told me it was rape and I needed to tell someone. But the thought of
that made me want to throw up. I was still so afraid of him. I was looking over my shoulder
everywhere I went, afraid someone would tell him what I had told him. I gagged when I smelled
anything that smelled like him. When I would talk to someone new if they even made a friendly
gesture towards me I was afraid they would touch me and wanted to run away screaming. I had flash
backs all the time. I would space out when I was with my friends. It was like I was there physically
but mentally gone. Every time they would joke about sex I was gone mentally. Eventually I started
plugging me ears. My life was not normal. I stopped going to church and to volleyball because I felt
unsafe.
Hunter kept finding ways to come around too. He once called Spencer to hang out but Spencer with
Tayler and I and told Hunter that and Hunter hung up and then later called Tayler and asked if he
could come over so she could look at it. He came over and fixed the gun himself in like 5 minutes and
then stuck around for an hour or two.
I would go yard selling to with Spencer and Hunter would come too. Hunter surprised me and was
nice and bought me a plate, but then he started making the mean comments I had originally told him
not to make. Then Spencer left us alone for a minute and I told him I wanted to buy a space heater
and he looked at me so cold and said, “I just want to beat you” and shook his head and walked away. I
later found some conversation heart stickers I wanted to buy and he took them out of my hands and
threw them to another table and said lets go. Then we saw an old couple on bikes and he asked if I
wanted to be them. I asked him what he meant and he said, “Let me put it this way, if you could be
young and single with no one who loves you like how you are right now, or be old and in love which
would you choose?” (He always talked about how old people were the worst). I didn’t know what to
say to that. Later on our way to Chick-fil-a Spencer asked why they hadn’t gone camping yet and I
said it was because Hunter was too busy being a simp. Then Hunter started incessantly asking who I
was talking about and I could feel I walked myself into a trap so I tried to brush it off but eventually
when he kept asking I said Micah and then he got a smug look on his face and said, yeah, she and I
hang out a lot. Spencer was obviously uncomfortable so I apologized to him and Hunter said, “Yeah
Brooke why do you always have to say things.” So when we got to Chick-fil-a I told them I was going
to walk home. Hunter told me I wouldn’t even be able to find my way home. I went inside with
them but once a group came I left so they couldn’t stop me and I walked over to Snoaisis and waited
for my friend Lauren to pick me up. After that I told Spencer to please not spring hanging out with
Hunter on me and also that I felt uncomfortable hanging out with him.
Then Tayler and Matt started hanging out with Hunter again.
I was so hurt that Matt had started hanging out with him again after he had told me he wanted
nothing to do with Hunter and after knowing all the awful things that had happened. He called me
the day after the fourth of July and I asked him if he was still trying to be friends with Hunter
(because they had hung out the whole day before even though Matt and I were originally going to
hang out) and he said he wasn’t trying to be friends with Hunter but that Hunter invites him to
things and he invites Hunter to things and they hang out and go camping etc. I said that sounds like
being friends and he said if it bothered me then that was my problem. I asked him how he could hang
out with someone who had hurt someone he loved and he said that Hunter had never admitted to
doing anything with me. I said of course he won’t Matt, he will protect his reputation. He has lied to
you so many times and you know that, and I have always been honest with you. He said he knows
Hunter lies but it wasn’t his place to judge and even if Hunter had murdered someone he still had to
love Hunter. I told Matt I was uncomfortable hanging out with him after that.
Then my best friend Tayler started hanging out with Matt and Hunter and Spencer. It was hard for
me because Tayler also knew everything at this point and was leaving me alone to hang out with the
guy who had caused me so much pain. She started lying about what she was doing to go hang out
with them and flake on our plans.
I had always known to be careful with Spencer because he had told me from the beginning if a girl
came to him and told him that Hunter had done anything to her he would take his side because
Hunter is “his boy”. But I had become friends with him and tried to send sos signals to him as well. I
had even started up a conversation about blow jobs (yuck sorry to say that) to try and naturally bring
up the topic so I could express to him that bad things were happening without saying too much and
getting in trouble with Hunter. He had also seen the bruise on my face from Hunter bitting me. He
had just said it didn’t sound like I was in a good situation and should probably get out of it. He knew
Hunter kept things from him too and it made him distrust Hunter but I still distrusted him because
he kept from me that Micah and Hunter were going out while Hunter was still with me and after the
fact lied to Tayler about when they started dating and also when I had asked Spencer if I should
warm Micah (who was Spencer’s friend) about Hunter he said, “No, don’t do that to Hunter”. I guess
he wasn’t too worried about Micah and him taking Hunter’s side right there at the expense of Micah
was troubling.
So with all that I knew more now than ever that the people who had been closet to the situation were
now with Hunter, even after seeing bruises, marks, and my attempt to get their attention and help.
I felt completely alone and planned to try and live my life the best I could. A week or two passed by
since losing some of my closest friend and I decided that I could be at peace knowing now that at
least I wasn’t with friends who I thought I could trust, but that didn’t have my back and that when I
died I’d know that I hadn’t done anything wrong or mean or malicious to anyone.
Then one night I hung out with Tristan. He told me Ava had posted another TikTok about Hunter
cheating on her, so I decided to reach out and ask if it was about him and maybe offer some comfort
to her. That is when we discovered that he had been cheating on both of us with each other as well as
four other girls. This was awful to hear of course so Tristan and I went to Hunter’s house and I
knocked on the door and said, “You cheated on me with Ava?” And he played dumb and said he
didn’t know what I was talking about even though I had the proof. Ava told me later he unfollowed
and blocked her. Anyways I told him it was really rude of him to do that and he said he didn’t want
to talk about it and he didn’t want to talk about it with Tristan right there but Tristan was smart and
didn’t leave. He gave me a nasty look and I felt a sudden desire to start apologizing for him cheating
on me. It made no sense but anyways I told him I hoped he treated Micah better and we left. I felt
like I had handled the situation well enough but needed to cry so Tristan and I went across the
canyon and I let it out. I felt better after that. Until Ava and I continued our conversation. That is
when she sent me a text from one of the girls Hunter had slept with and she said that she felt that she
couldn’t say no to Hunter. Tristan and I reached out to the other girl and she said that Hunter had
said threatening things to her and she was uncomfortable with her name coming up.
For the first time the reality that this could happen to someone again hit me. I am not sure the full
details with the other girls but I knew that it had happened to me and that if he thought he could get
away with it then he would undoubtably try again. My life had been living Hell. I couldn’t bear the
thought of that happening to anyone else. I knew that if I could have had someone there to protect
me I would have wanted that. I realized that I would feel guilty for the rest of my life if this
happened to someone else when I could have helped prevented it. I was also tired of missing out on
church and living in fear and looking over my shoulder in Winco and everywhere and I wanted my
life back. So I decided to tell the bishop to raise awareness and try to protect other girls at church. I
was afraid for my actual life. I remembered that Hunter had said that he would have shot the guy that
stole his trailer if he could have gotten away with it if the police weren’t there. So I talked myself into
talking thinking he wouldn’t make matters worse for himself but the fear was definitely still there
and almost made me stop a few times. After all I was doing what I had been afraid to do the entire
time, but I knew without a doubt it was the right thing to do. It was so hard to tell. It was so hard to
re-live the memories. It was so heart breaking to tell my parents. Bishop called an attorney to talk
about a restraining order and the attorney told me that it would be best to press charges, that it would
be most effective to stop this. I cried when he talked about arresting Hunter. I felt so sad thinking
about him going to jail. I may have hated him at times but I also did love him once and this is a sad
situation that I wish had never happened. But it did happen and he needs help and other people need
protecting and I knew it was going to be hard but I told myself come what may and so that is why I
came to the police.